i dont mean to be cynical right at the start of school.... but i'm beginning to lose that flow again. perhaps and i think i'm pretty pretty sure... something i really want and desire is missing in my life.. and that makes me empty, and feel judged by others. sometimes it's wise to tell yourself. who gives a HOOT??? but on the other hand, we always want people to give a hoot to you. so. conflicting. somehow.. i feel i don't belong to where i am now. not really physically or anything. but in the things i do, the people i'm with, or even my plans for the future. all so direction-less.

i just want to MOVE ON. actually.