at this moment.. i need my Gossip Girl to keep my sanity. LOAD ME WITH MORE PLEAAASSSSEEEE. i've stopped streaming from pps for a long time.
cos the network at hougang seriously sucks. not a place for video-lovers and gamers. u WILL DIE.

now that we've grown up to this point.. i realized a lot of things can be let go. a lot of things can change.. especially for the better when u give up on the worst.. i'm not taking it back cos i'm tired. i could've said it's obvious you let things happen.. it's obvious u fucking lied. it's obvious ure hurting me and u continue to trample on my bleeding wound. but.. end of the day.. even if u wanna say it's my fault.. it's my thinking. it's my persistence.. it really doesn't MATTER. not anymore. i won't even bother to tell apart who's right or wrong.. i can just take it that u're innocent.. i can just blame myself for everything.. and what i want now... is my life back. it's too long a journey... i'm filled with open wounds inside out. i've become someone i never wanted to be. so.. give me back my life.. stop pretending a few moments later like nothing happened... this illusion u keep building is draining all of me. and now i'm just disgusted at how things have become.... i even wished i were on a long trip now... (which i soon would be signing myself up for) and that u really walked out on me while i was away.... cos really.... it DOESN'T MATTER.

yes.. waste your time no longer on this.. (: