melissa: i dont wanna miss a morning anymore. it's too beautiful to be missed.

i woke up early today!!

ON MY OWN ACCORD
it's strange but i feel prouda myself!!!!
gogogo mel!!!
actually, waking up at 7.30am sharp for breakfast is a good feeling.
the best is when u get to eat with your family or best friend
<3s this kinda feelin

i heard something (that was supposedly) shocking..
strangely... though it should've felt unpleasant to me..
but i feel numb already.
a lot of things can make you feel lousy
feel like shit
feel like f*ck
feel like a walking p
but everything has got a move-on
once that painful phase is over
you gonna get up and get going to find happiness again

cuzzie was right.
"life is short."

you never know when u step outta your house
you might get knocked down by lorry
you might get struck by lightning on the sunniest day
you might be robbed of everything and stabbed to death in an isolated lift
no one will be there to help you
no one will always be a "forever" to you
WHY SETTLE FOR LESS...??
when you deserve so much better.
there's no lack of people around
there's no need to be faithful to someone
whom u know has never been truthful to you
whom you know would not be the one for you
whom you know you have to make changes for
and eventually still leave you no matter the efforts you have put in
to change
to wait
to love
to sacrifice
ive been someone like tt for way too long
you might think it's a virtue
but sometimes things can be good to a fault
that eventually
does anyone care a shit about your sacrifices
when they finally decide
to hurt you
cheat you
lie to you
and then
leave you..?
why change for someone who doesnt love you enough when there IS someone out there who can totally accept you for who you really are (and that includes your insecurities)
and totally love you the way that you act, feel and cry
and that you love him too..?

i'm waiting for that day to come
and i'm starting from today to start afresh
i might appear okay and things are fine
but i'm starting to observe and think for myself
it ain't that i've been stupid
i just don't speak out what i know
and what i believe some people had done
i just tend to let things go so that it's easier on me too
i used to feel hurt and tolerate things that i try hard to turn a blind eye to
i used to make excuses for people who hurt me
but i really shouldn't anymore
if things are as they are, fishy or, that have frozen to the point of breakage
if things appear uncomfortably hurting
i may not have hard proof
but the truth tends to catch up soon
and i'm gonna try to stand up for myself..

okaes i'mma..... get ready to..... go to school!
:D

some pics!!!
i played with some programs
i'm starting to enjoy photo-editing
adding effects and all
but it's a lil time-consuming :/

i diggs such caps and hats!!!!!!!!!!!
i think they're really adorable!!!!!!
i wanna buy some soon!!!!
but i dont know where or when i could wear them
maybe when i go overseas!!!!
cool beans!!!!!

:D