I didnt call the cops... first thing u did was to jump to accuse me of having been so
cruel to you that you were disappointed in me.. you even “gave” me a chance… that you’d wait in the park for me to appear… it’s so painful but at the same time so laughable.. how you could bring yourself to say you loved me and then you act like you never did.. how you say you’d changed but you’re still the same or even worse than before..

there was a night in Oct2008 when i discovered the real you.. the night when
everything changed.. that pain.. i remember very clearly and am reminded of over and over the following years to come.. was crying non-stop over the phone wanting to know why you had to stab me so bad. was pleading over the
phone to let me go.. to let me sleep.. i didnt wanna tell you you were forgiven as
immediately as i called to confront you.. i didn’t want you to know i was so softhearted… i didn’t want you to feel it was easy to hurt me and get away with it.. but it was.. it still is.. so
easy for you to break in, empty everything that i have left inside to hold on to for dignity and safety, and whisper calmly that i’m the one who’s been hurting you… mom took over the phone that night to stop you from continuing to torture me by demanding
from me my forgiveness before i was allowed to go to bed (in tears).. you were rude to her.. saying that it (which ironicaly involved a thirdparty) was between me and you…. this time.. you got your mum and your best friend to step in.. you allowed them to blame me… like i was the one who made you crazy and suicidal and emotional… wasn’t it supposed to be “between you and me”……? who helped me when i was going through depression.. when i
felt suicidal..?? did i not beg you to help me…? did i not beg you to take a look at me..? did i
not beg you to bring me to the doctor’s? did i not (shamelessly) beg you to take me back in to stay when i was made homeless because you told me to fuck off from your house…? did i not beg you to leave aside your so-called friend’s party because i wasn’t going to make it anymore…? and i couldnt make it because of your lies, your abuses and your neglect… yet i had to be the one begging you for something i deserved to have..

Its exactly a year since 09.09.09. That night you promised the stars and moon.. That you'd never commit the same mistakes again.. That you'd use the coming year to prove to me how much
you were determined to change.. And what happened less than a year later...?
youre the biggest lie i ever forced myself to be convinced to be faithful towards...

now ure just finding excuses for yourself to hate me more than i should hate you..because ive never hurt you the same way youve hurt me over and over again, ure now finding reasons for yourself and everyone to believe youre the victim out of this episode.. All in all... You HAVENT changed and you NEVER will..